I constantly struggle with “should.”
There are so many things that I feel like I’m supposed to do because that’s just how it is or has always been. By 34, society has embed all sorts of expectations into the back of my mind.
Here’s what I’m supposed to do:
I’m supposed to work from 9-5 on weekdays…that’s when everyone else works. And even if I work on weekends, I really should be in the office at 9am Monday morning.
Right?
And speaking of weekends, I should work during the week but not on weekends. The work week is Monday thru Friday, not whatever days I feel like working.
That’s what people do, right?
I should wear a suit.
I should comb my hair.
I should shave everyday.
I should be married by now.
I should have kids by now.
I should hire everyone under one roof instead of using subcontractors.
I should…
I should…
I should…
What if there is no such thing as should? What if we’re all making it up? What if someone else made it up for their own benefit?
Here’s the new plan:
I will…
I will make my own decisions regardless of what anyone else thinks I should do.
I like the sound of that.