I have this terrible feeling anytime things are going well.
I can’t help it.
I always feel as though things are going to just crumble without warning.
No matter how good things are, the fear is always standing right behind it.
I don’t struggle with fraud syndrome all that much, but I do have this, which is equally bad. When is that other shoe going to drop?
So I think a lot about what I can do to prevent it. My fear about this inevitable tragedy motivates me to do everything in my power to avoid it. Maybe it’s unavoidable, or maybe, eventually, the way I operate in fear of it is the very thing that will ward it off.
I guess I’ll find out.